At some point either tonight or tomorrow I will mention this to him. I want him to find some sort of solution to this because it`s become quite a problem for both of us. I just need to calm down. If I were to talk to him now, I know things wouldn`t go well. I`m quite frustrated, at the moment. I`m tempted to go ahead and make other plans for the weekend without him, but that would suck too because I like seeing Gabe.
Today and Gabe and I were supposed to go to my staff barbecue. However, he sent me a text saying he was sick and that he would not go. It`s fine, I guess, but I spent $20 yesterday on baking goods for him to make something for the barbecue. He has the dessert, and he offered to come out here and bring it to me, but he then changed his mind. It would have been complicated to arrange, anyway. He elaborated on how he felt; he feels nauseous, which he attributes to a lack of sleep. I`m disappointed that he wouldn`t show up because I was looking forward to seeing him, but the more I thought about it, the more I came to think about what`s stopping him from getting enough sleep. For one thing, he doesn`t allow himself to have a consistent sleep schedule like most people. As a result of this, he`s tired all the time, he`s now sick, and he can never commit to what he plans with me. I want him to get enough sleep, but he needs to ensure that for himself. Clearly his choice to sleep on an inconsistent schedule is detrimental to his health and to my patience. His flaky behaviour has become very frustrating to bear, and today it became more than just me going to the barbecue by myself. Now I have to find the time to go buy more food with the little money I have instead of using that time to work on my school district applications. It`s come to the point where I don`t have any faith that we`ll see each other and follow through with what we planned anymore. I don`t want to spend my time and effort arranging for things to do when they always fall through because he doesn`t allow himself to have enough sleep. Had he stuck to a sleep schedule and told me about, I would make plans for the time I knew he would be awake and rested. He`s become very unreliable, and this is a trait I do not find attractive.